Usually, on blogs or social media, we tend to display the highlights of our lives. The best of the best.
And what are we too afraid to put online? Our inadequacies.
Why?
If we write someone on paper, we can toss it in the can and forget its existence. When we write online, it is imprinted forever.
But, in this post, I want to be vulnerable. My hopes are that through this post, I can help others feel that they are not alone.
To give you a little backstory, within the past couple of weeks, I have moved, gotten married, and will be starting a new leadership position.
A lot of change; Good change, exciting change, but still change nonetheless.
Throughout these recent and pivotal changes of my life, where I see all I have ever wanted before me, one question keeps hitting me harder than the rest:
Am I going to be enough?
- Will I be a good enough wife?
- Will I make my husband happy?
- Will I be able to make the positive impact I dream to make in my new leadership position?
- Will I be able to give students and staff everything they deserve?
Although my husband and I have dated for years previously to our marriage and in my career I have had a myriad of educational leadership experiences, I cannot help but feel the feelings and ask myself these questions.
Change in all areas in life is incredible. But, it still looks like and feels like vulnerability.
But, I am learning that a part of being human means we have to start allowing ourselves to feel the feelings that come along with it. To be honest, to be raw, to be authentic.
We were born to be imperfect; To have polarizing emotions. Some days I feel confident, other days I do not. No one may ever know or be able to tell if I confident or not, but it still does not mask my inner feelings.
This is a message for you (and me):
Asking yourself, “Am I good enough?” does not make you any less of a person or educator. It does not mean you cannot handle challenges. You absolutely can.
Being brave enough to ask that question means that you care deeply; You love people and want to help more than you can even describe.
I can feel, even as I write this, that opening myself up to unknown and embracing it, rather than feeling inadequate because of it, is the best thing I could do, not the worst.
Remember: You are enough.
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